The University of Georgia

Just checking in. I'm still here, I promise. I'm leaving to go to my first class of the day in about fifteen minutes. I love college, AY! That song's been stuck in my head for days! Okay, since I probably won't write again for a while, here's the rest of my week and my weekend.



Week: Homework, homework, homework. Find time to eat and go to the gym once or twice.

Friday Night: PHI SLAM! Mega Metallic Mania Crazy Chrome Insania!

Saturday: UL LAFAYETTE! GO DAWGS!

Sunday: Shelby and JR? Hopefully?

Monday: Relax, hopefully get to work on the homework I've neglected all weekend. Maybe visit home?

Then, it's back to the daily grind. Maybe I'll post on Tuesday. I'd like to write something creative? Have an amazing week and weekend guys, I love you!

"I admit I have been lax.."

I haven't been doing a very good job of keeping up with blogging since the whole college thing started. I've been so amazingly busy.



For starters, this is the town that I now call home. I'm not there right now, I missed real home too much. I do really like it there, though. I'm sure I'll grow to absolutely love it over time, too. Right now, it's a bit overwhelming. I really want to be a part of the honors program next semester, so I'm busting my butt this semester. I'll leave you with a song.

On the corner of main street
Just trying to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and you say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

I never really gave up on breaking out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

The good old days
The honest man
The restless heart
The promised land
A subtle kiss that no one sees
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go can you read my mind

It's funny how you just break down waiting on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway with magic soaking my spine

Can you read my mind
Can you read my mind

The teenage queen
The loaded gun
The drop dead dream
The chosen one
A southern drawl
A world unseen
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you jump tell me what you find when you read my mind

Slipping in my faith until I fall
He never returned that call
Woman
Open the door
Don't let it stay
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said
I don't mind if you don't mind 'cause I don't shine if you don't shine

Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
Can you read my mind

Friday, August 13, 2010

I have SO many reasons to smile right now:

1. I'm at home in Athens! I'm all moved in to my dorm room, lounging in my semi-comfy butterfly chair and watching ESPN as I type. It's great here, and I love it A LOT. The food is great, the buses aren't as confusing as the hype makes them seem, my bed is comfy, the people are friendly, and you get a pretty decent workout everywhere you go. I repeat, I LOVE IT HERE.

2. One of my best friends, who's been a state away for years, is about to finally be within an hour of me. 'Nuff said.

3. I have a Falcons game to watch tonight. Yay! I've missed football, leave me alone.

4. I'm taking a VERY positive step towards getting a job! I went job searching yesterday at the mall. I'm really hoping for a shot at a job at Earthbound, GameStop, Target, or maybe Barnes & Noble. Really, I'd be happy with a job ANYWHERE.

5. FREEEEEDOM! Again, 'nuff said.

Right now? I'm curled up under my favorite blanket in my chilly dorm room. I'm really sleepy, and I'm not feeling very well. My voice is going. I'm also roommate-less for the night. Taylor's car broke down on the loop on her way home from work. I have to wake up early tomorrow morning to make my way home for the weekend. My car needs a new muffler, and my great grandmother's birthday party is on Sunday. Sunday evening, it's back here for classes to start on Monday. Needless to say, I couldn't be more excited about my future beginning.

Cousin

Jackson 9:47 pm
when I was away

i met a man who claimed he could go around the whole world in one day while driving a car

tried it several times
...
the point is

he blamed the cars for his failure, he never accepted the fact that what he was trying to do...was impossible

i admire that

"Can't you see it's killing me?

I'm my own worst enemy.
Knock me down, I'll keep on moving.
It's the art of losing."

"One, two, fuck you.
Don't tell me what to do.
I don't want to be like you."

Just a piece of inspiration. I'll use this later.

If You Really Knew Me

I don't know how many of you have seen the show called "If You Really Knew Me" on MTV, but it's my new favorite. I really can't describe the show to you, I tried just now, but I deleted it all, because I can't.

I'm brought to blog today because the show inspired me to tell you, my readers, what you would know if you really knew me.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I come from a divorced family. Often, I've felt caught between my parents. Now I realize that BOTH of my parents put me through things a kid should never have to go through. I'm not saying they aren't good parents, I wouldn't ask for anyone else, but I don't want to be like them when I have kids.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I suffer with or have suffered with extreme self image problems, self injury, eating, depression, and anxiety issues.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I can't be in a relationship because I'm uncomfortable with it. I can't trust that someone is attracted to me or thinks I have a good personality.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I struggle with these things every day.

Thank you for reading. I love you. What would I know if I really knew you?

My Stand

"It's not how I stand, but where I stand." Oh Justin Nozuka, I'd marry you right here, right now.

Love is the Answer,

My favorite verse from my favorite love song! This is so beautiful that it practically brings tears to my eyes:

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard;
No song that I could sing,
But I can try for your heart.
Our dreams, they are made out of real things,
Like a shoe box of photographs
With sepia tone loving.
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart.
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving.
I'll tell you one thing,
It's always better when we're together.

Reading List

Self-explanatory. These are the books on my list. The ones with a sunshine next to them are the ones I've read. Get it? Got it? Good. If I add more books to my mental list, I'll add them here, so check back if you want to read with me!

[☼] The Stand- Stephen King
[ ] Wicked- Gregory Maguire
[ ] Bag of Bones- Stephen King
[ ] Pet Sematary- Stephen King
[ ] Of Mice and Men- John Steinbeck
[ ] And Then There Were None- Agatha Christie
[ ] Jurassic Park- Michael Crichton
[ ] Coraline- Neil Gaiman
[ ] The Memory Keeper's Daughter- Kim Edwards
[ ] Memoirs of a Geisha- Arthur Golden
[ ] Life of Pi- Yann Martel
[ ] The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring- J.R.R. Tolkien
[ ] The Lovely Bones- Alice Sebold
[ ] The Bell Jar- Sylvia Plath
[ ] Skinny- Ibi Kaslik
[☼] Ender's Game- Orson Scott Card
[ ] My Sister's Keeper- Jodi Picoult
[ ] The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy- Douglas Adams
[ ] Everything's Eventual: 14 Dark Tales- Stephen King
[ ] The Green Mile- Stephen King
[ ] Fight Club- Chuck Palahniuk
[ ] Angela's Ashes- Frank McCourt
[ ] The Shining- Stephen King
[☼] Youth in Revolt: The Journals of Nick Twisp- C.D. Payne
[ ] A Million Little Pieces- James Frey
[ ] The Da Vinci Code- Dan Brown
[ ] The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo- Stieg Larsson
[ ] The Black Dahlia- James Ellroy
[☼] The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger
[ ] Haunted- Chuck Pahlahniuk
[ ] Angels & Demons- Dan Brown

Books to Buy:
Churched: One Kid's Journey Toward God Despite a Holy Mess- Matthew Paul Turner
Watership Down- Richard Adams
Flowers for Algernon- Daniel Keyes
A Wrinkle in Time- Madeleine L'Engle
The Virgin Suicides- Jeffrey Eugenides

Concerning the Sun

"It's not too bad when the sun's out, but then sun only comes out when it feels like coming out."