Heartbreak

They don't call it that for no reason. "Windowpane"? That was stupid, Eminem, and I hope you didn't write that line.

For real though, heartbreak does suck, and it does hurt.

When everything you worked so hard to do got taken advantage of? That sucks too, and leads to the heartbreak.

When the one you normally look to for comfort, the one that you normally want to snuggle up against while they rub your back and tell you that everything is okay, is the one who hurt you this time? Yeah, that sucks more, and causes the heartbreak.

So what do you do? You go out and have a good day. By the grace of sweet baby Jesus himself you accidentally leave your phone in your cousin Clay's car and actually enjoy yourself at the Falcons game instead of constantly checking your phone. When you get back to the car and read your missed text messages, it's kind of okay that you didn't get them. When your phone rings in the car on the way home, you're comfortable with the fact that you didn't answer it. Gorshdamnit, you had a good day, you're NOT going to let it be ruined now.

I, once again, ask the question: "Was it love or was it just easy?"

Hell no, it wasn't easy. You just got told that your lover and your best friend all wrapped in to one with a ribbon on it lied to you for a month even though he knew it would hurt you in the end. You feel stupid, everybody knew except you, and you defended him.

Wow, you're dumb. You deserve to feel the way you do.

Where do you go from here?

You don't know, you just don't know.