I'm going to do it. Check back starting on Halloween. I'm pumped! Okay, so November came and I wasn't ready to do NaNoWriMo. Maybe I'll wait until next year, maybe I'll just do it another month, maybe I'll take my time, maybe I'll NEVER write a book: Bottom line is, right now, there's just too much on my plate already. I didn't want to delete this post though, so I'm kind of totally changing the point of it.
November certainly doesn't leave me with NOTHING to smile about! I've officially been a vegetarian for a year! I'm so proud of myself for sticking with it, and it's been surprisingly easy. I don't crave meat. And even better- while everyone else is packing on the "freshman 15", I haven't gained a pound and we're almost half way through the year!
ALSO, Fall/Winter and the holiday season is my absolute FAVORITE time of the year. It just puts me in a good mood, and I can't wait to spend it with my baby.
Speaking of my baby, Chris Nix, you're the biggest reason I have to smile, and I love you.
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
[Colbie]
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Heartbreak
They don't call it that for no reason. "Windowpane"? That was stupid, Eminem, and I hope you didn't write that line.
For real though, heartbreak does suck, and it does hurt.
When everything you worked so hard to do got taken advantage of? That sucks too, and leads to the heartbreak.
When the one you normally look to for comfort, the one that you normally want to snuggle up against while they rub your back and tell you that everything is okay, is the one who hurt you this time? Yeah, that sucks more, and causes the heartbreak.
So what do you do? You go out and have a good day. By the grace of sweet baby Jesus himself you accidentally leave your phone in your cousin Clay's car and actually enjoy yourself at the Falcons game instead of constantly checking your phone. When you get back to the car and read your missed text messages, it's kind of okay that you didn't get them. When your phone rings in the car on the way home, you're comfortable with the fact that you didn't answer it. Gorshdamnit, you had a good day, you're NOT going to let it be ruined now.
I, once again, ask the question: "Was it love or was it just easy?"
Hell no, it wasn't easy. You just got told that your lover and your best friend all wrapped in to one with a ribbon on it lied to you for a month even though he knew it would hurt you in the end. You feel stupid, everybody knew except you, and you defended him.
Wow, you're dumb. You deserve to feel the way you do.
Where do you go from here?
You don't know, you just don't know.
For real though, heartbreak does suck, and it does hurt.
When everything you worked so hard to do got taken advantage of? That sucks too, and leads to the heartbreak.
When the one you normally look to for comfort, the one that you normally want to snuggle up against while they rub your back and tell you that everything is okay, is the one who hurt you this time? Yeah, that sucks more, and causes the heartbreak.
So what do you do? You go out and have a good day. By the grace of sweet baby Jesus himself you accidentally leave your phone in your cousin Clay's car and actually enjoy yourself at the Falcons game instead of constantly checking your phone. When you get back to the car and read your missed text messages, it's kind of okay that you didn't get them. When your phone rings in the car on the way home, you're comfortable with the fact that you didn't answer it. Gorshdamnit, you had a good day, you're NOT going to let it be ruined now.
I, once again, ask the question: "Was it love or was it just easy?"
Hell no, it wasn't easy. You just got told that your lover and your best friend all wrapped in to one with a ribbon on it lied to you for a month even though he knew it would hurt you in the end. You feel stupid, everybody knew except you, and you defended him.
Wow, you're dumb. You deserve to feel the way you do.
Where do you go from here?
You don't know, you just don't know.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
It Makes Me Smile
Sitting in my class this afternoon, FANR 1100, when I should have been paying attention to the guest lecturer talk about wildlife management, an uncontrollable smile expanded across my face. I know, I probably looked like a crazy person, sitting there and smiling to myself, but I don't care. Do you know why? I finally realized that finally, after all of these years, I have so many reasons to smile.
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